KEW KEW PEW PEW

You know its strange how we only realize what we did wrong after we do it, after someone tells us, yet we often fail to change. If you feel pain you know you’re living life, not just sitting around doing nothing. They say life is meant to be enjoyed, but life is full of pain, so what would you say we could enjoy? I’d say its the moments that matter, where you speak not just with words but with your spirit, where you act from the heart. We live for these moments, yet we don’t cherish them enough; they come and go, as do people in our lives, but some we’ll miss more than others, some we’ll sit and wonder what happened.

Life goes on/come of age/can’t hold on/turn the page.

Intelligence is commonly regarded as the sum of a person’s test scores and grades, but in reality, that’s only the tip of the iceberg. A person’s real intelligence is a combination of their ability to think fluidly, solve problems, and create simple solutions to what seem to be complex problems. In contrast, academic are largely a test of your ability to stay focused on monotonous tasks. As a result of this skewed view on intelligence, highly intelligent people who prefer to work with a combination of manual and mental work are overlooked in favor of those who focus purely on the typical math and English “problems.” What we need now are people who think fluidly and can do what they talk about, but first our educational system and conception of intelligence must change, because the times are changing, but we aren’t.

…Take back what’s yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cause I’m sick of being treated like I have before
Like it’s stupid standing for what I’m standing for…

Take back the truth and freedom we once stood for that our leaders are destroying and restricting, because its not stupid to want to know, its not stupid to question, and neither is it stupid to say something others won’t like, especially if its the truth. Iraq is a mess, not because we invaded, but because of who we let handle it, and how they handled it. The truth is our president is in more or less a state of denial, but thats changing with each day of the people speaking up, and you know whos speaking up? Whos getting angry? Not those damn intellectuals flaunting, not the oil barons, not the “in” crowd, and not the politicians, but the people. The everyday American citizen.

I still want to join the Army no matter what people are saying right now (mostly along the lines of “I don’t want you to get killed”). The problem is all this shit happening is just pissing me off; the vanity at home, the war abroad, and all the sorrow. To hell with all those idiots, you know why theres discrimination against asians in some parts? Cause indeed (most) asians are wusses, afraid to do anything alone, afraid to stand up for jackshit unless they’re sure theres a crowd around, but I do have to apologize for not having grown up in an asian environment, which to me is a blessing. Some of the people I knew when I was little were just fucking awesome, but a typical asian would look down on them cause they’re not that “intelligent,” as if a few letters from A-F was something you could judge a person by? As fucking if smartalec comments, regurgitation of what you’re told, and a few nice numbers and certificates would make a real person think your good. I’m sorry for the attitude but experience is a good teacher, not a kind one, and I learned damn well how to separate the real people from the fucking fakes, cause I grew up with real people, and I was picked on by the fakes. In the Army, theres no room for people full of themselves, cause you gotta fight, and you can’t fake that. You can’t fake the pride in your country, the sense of duty to those around you, the willingness to if necessary, give your life to preserve the ideals of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness not just for Americans, but for all.

We once stood for freedom, we fought for it, and died for it. Our leaders have stood for the truth, and paid the ultimate price. Our men and women in uniform fighting every day are the finest in the world. Is it not our duty to stand behind them at home? We’re not dying, we’re not suffering through the horrors of war, we’re comfortable sitting at home with our designer clothing, sitting on nice couches. I’m a part of this country, and I’m itching to do my part. As I said before, if through my actions just one more soldier can come home smiling to his family, it’ll be damn worth it, even if I come home in a box, cause I’d be able to finally be at peace, knowing I finally managed to make the greatest difference for someone.

I like how I went on like 3 different tangents. I fucking hate my mental deterioration right now, my memory is literally fucking failing me. The fact that I’m almost constantly in chaos isn’t helping. One reason why I just sit and play games now is cause I seriously am in no damn condition to think. To hell, fire, and brimstone with that.

Few people today really understand war for what it is. Take the Iraq war for example, its all about American lives, but do those people realize the toll on the Iraqis? For each American dead, there have been dozens of Iraqi dead, and these people are civilians, not soldiers. The cost of war to us Americans has been limited by the numbers we see, but the true cost of war is the loss of loved ones on both sides. In the end, the dead are all the same, dead human bodies, but they share the fact that they were all once living people with parents, spouses, children. However, without forgetting the dead, we must remember the living, who fight, who become the dead. They fight for the sake of those who died, fight so their dreams of peace may be achieved, fight so the dream of peace and prosperity for all of humanity can be achieved.

Joining the Army (after pre-med sadly, cause only then can my parents have no power over the decision) for me will not only be physical improvement and making a difference (however small), it will also be moral. In letters back home written by fallen soldiers, they say that Iraq is a job unfinished, and that they want it finished. This sense of responsibility at the cost of life is something pretty much limited to those willing to die to protect their country, the ideals of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness, and to fight for those who can’t fight. Our soldiers of generations past have stood up  against foreign powers in foreign lands to safeguard the things we hold dear: our lives and liberty, and the lives and liberty of those oppressed. It will be an honor to serve.

In wars, people tend to focus on the atrocities in them by the aggressors, but ignore much else, a prime example being China and Japan on Nanking. A problem is that they fail to realize what happened to Japan during the war. Japan paid dearly in blood, sweat, and tears. The civilians had to endure horrific US bombing raids and a severe lack of basic necessities, and the soldiers faced overwhelming US military power. By the end of the war, Japan had no merchant vessels left, and the Japanese navy was all but gone, along with large portions of the major cities. Civilians frequently bear the brunt of the war, and the hate after it. This is to say, never judge a people by what their leaders do, for they may not have a say in what happens.

I don’t know why people today at church focus so much on theology and learning about what Jesus did. Jesus spent more time embodying the fundamental beliefs that make up the core of Christianity: Love, tolerance, and forgiveness. Famous Christians are most of the time famous for putting those core beliefs into action, not for preaching. Christians today have become too focused on petty matters of the meanings of certain things Jesus did, possibly due to the increasing shallowness of society, but more likely due to ignorance and a strange need to “preach” the word to others. Without these core beliefs, preaching is nothing. Preaching with the motive of conversion behind it is weak, preaching love, tolerance, and forgiveness has power behind it, the true power behind the religion.